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Date:2004-06-18 05:30
Mood: jubilant

How to make a lucidlydreaming

1 part mercy

5 parts self-sufficiency

5 parts instinct
Layer ingredientes in a shot glass. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of caring

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Date:2004-02-03 18:38
Subject:A different view...
Mood: cheerful

Eight Miles High   
(Gene Clark/Roger McGuinn/David Crosby)
Eight miles high and when you touch down
You'll find that it's stranger than known
Signs in the street that say where you're going
Are somewhere just being their own

Nowhere is there warmth to be found
Among those afraid of losing their ground
Rain gray town known for its sound
In places small faces unbound

Round the squares huddled in storms
Some laughing some just shapeless forms
Sidewalk scenes and black limousines
Some living, some standing alone

"And it was a great thrill to get to write a song with him when he came to do an album that Jeff was producing, they invited me over and I met Roy Orbison and on that very day we sat down and wrote this song called 'You Got It'." - Tom Petty

"So much has been said about Roy, I just feel real lucky to have had the opportunity to know him and to work with him. He was the greatest singer that I ever heard, ever." - Tom Petty on Roy Orbison

"And so I just thought I'll just go into the studio tomorrow and do one, and it happened that Jeff was working with Roy and Roy wanted to come. My guitar was at Tom's house for some reason and I had to go round and get it. And the only studio that we could find available was Bob's. So we thought, Bobs got one, we'll just call him up." - George Harrison on the formation of the Wilburys

"So we went out there to Bob Dylan's house, sat on the grass and from the germ of an idea that George had on the guitar we wound up writing this song called 'Handle With Care'." - Tom Petty

"And so everybody was there and I thought I'm not gonna just sing it myself, I've got Roy Orbison standing there. I'm gonna write a bit for Roy to sing. And then as it progressed then I started doing the vocals and I just thought I might as well push it a bit and get Tom and Bob to sing the bridge." - George Harrison on writing 'Handle With Care'

"Some people have difficulty with certain lyrics. Tom, he'll go anyway." - George Harrison on Tom Petty

"All I can really say about him is, you know, we loved him. We told him, fortunately, at any given opportunity, you know any time we had we always told him we loved him. We always hugged him. And we said 'Roy, you're so great.' I once said to him, 'Roy, you're probably the greatest singer in the world.' and he said, '...probably.'" -  Tom Petty on Roy Orbison

"Give us some lyrics, you famous lyricist." - George Harrisson to Bob Dylan while writing 'Handle With Care'

"We all enjoyed it so much. It was so relaxed. There was no ego involved and there was some sort of chemistry going on." - Roy Orbison on The Wilburys

"We watched Roy give an incredible concert and kept nudging each other and saying, 'Isn't he great? He's in our band.' We were real happy that night." - Tom Petty on the night Roy Orbison agreed to form the Wilburys

"Some said daddy was a cad and a bounder but I remember him as a Baptist minister." - Roy Orbison on The Wilburys father

"...if the others wanted to tour, I'd be inclined to do something." - George Harrisson on a Wilbury tour
My Birthday is in two days, *yayness*!!!
Especially since I know what I am getting!!! Thank you Roger *smiles*.



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Date:2004-01-13 15:55
Mood: amused

If I Needed Someone"
Written by George Harrison
Produced by George Martin

Recorded October 16th and 18th, 1965, EMI Studios, London
Released by the Beatles on Rubber Soul in Britain on December 3rd, 1965, and on "Yesterday" . . . And Today in America on June 20th, 1966

This twangy jewel was the result of a remarkable exchange of influences between the Beatles and one of their favorite new bands, the Byrds. Founding Byrds Roger McGuinn, Gene Clark and David Crosby were making demos in Los Angeles as an acoustic-folk group in 1964 when McGuinn saw Harrison playing a cherry-red, electric twelve-string Rickenbacker guitar in A Hard Day's Night. "I took my acoustic [twelve-string] and five-string banjo down to the music store," McGuinn recalls, "and traded them in for an electric twelve-string." McGuinn's Rickenbacker became the trademark sound of the Byrds and the signature instrument of the folk-rock revolution.

The Beatles returned the admiration. John Lennon and Paul McCartney attended one of the Byrds' first British shows in early 1965, and that August, on a day off from the Beatles' '65 U.S. tour, McCartney and Harrison attended a Byrds recording session in L.A. "We were recording 'She Don't Care About Time,' " says McGuinn. "I remember George was really into the Bach thing in the middle that I did" -- a stirring Rickenbacker quote from "Jesu, Joy of Man's Desiring." "George said, 'That's great. I love that.' He thought it was great the way I fit it into the song."

Two months later, Harrison paid McGuinn the ultimate compliment when the Beatles recorded "If I Needed Someone," a striking blend of cool dismissal ("Carve your number on my wall and maybe you'll get a call from me") and crystalline riffing adapted from McGuinn's lead lick in "The Bells of Rhymney," on the Byrds' debut album, Mr. Tambourine Man. In his autobiography, I.Me.Mine, Harrison characterized the song as a set of variations on a D chord: "If you move your finger about, you get various little melodies." But to McGuinn, he gave due thanks.

"George was very open about it," says McGuinn, who was then going by his original given name, Jim. "He sent [the record] to us in advance and said, 'This is for Jim' -- because of that lick."

That is SO awesome!! They are two of my favorites atrists; George Harrison and roger McGuinn. I found it on rolling stone:


I also found out that John Lennon wrote half of the words to Taxman. Maybe everyone else knew that but I had no idea.

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Date:2003-12-15 17:58
Subject:*... We'll be having a wonderful Chirstmas time..*
Mood: bouncy

"We'll be having a wonderful Christmas time."

I was having this feeling that I needed to up date. I think I am just dying to tell the world how excited I am for Christmas, oh and of course there are always the other little tidbits of information. *smiles*

 On November 28, Meg and I saw the Moody Blues!!! It was spectacular!! We were on the floor only 20 feet away from the stage. I was worried that they were going to play too many of their Christmas songs from their new cd. The played about four, but and Meg and I were happy because it made the evening even more specail. Especially when at the end of the concert they played "I'm Dreaming of a White Christmas," it was so beautiful!At one point during intermission we went to walk by the curtain where they were before they got on stage and there they were. So we were only 3 feel away from them, of course there was a curtain. I got to see a complete shot of Justin’s profile. So, then we walked back again to see if they were still there, and what did we find John lodge pants and all was leaning up against the curtain. There were only two girls about our age doing the security and they were talking, so.. I think you know what I mean. We regret not yelling something at them. But I guess it is that whole, feeling of being in shock and not enough nerve to just run in. It is so funny too, because whenever we watch the ELO Zoom dvd, we think how easy it would be to run up on stage, and say of we were in that situation we would have.

Set List:

 Lovely to See You 
 Gemini Dream
 Tuesday Afternoon
 Lean on Me (Tonight)
 English Sunset
 The Actor
 Steppin' in a Slide Zone
 Isn't Life Strange?
 I Know You're Out There Somewhere
 The Story in Your Eyes
 Your Wildest Dreams
 Don't Need a Reindeer
 The Spirit of Christmas
 December Snow
 Higher and Higher
 Are You Sitting Comfortably?
 I'm Just a Singer (in a Rock 'n' Roll Band)
 Nights in White Satin
 White Christmas
 Ride My See-Saw

Apparently, this was the first time the Moody Blues ever did a 2 song encore.

 Can you believe it is 10 days away from Christmas!!! I am overly excited this year, because I lack the knowledge of some of what I am getting (this is unusual). Also I am going to a Christmas party on Saturday. The only downside to this vacation is having to read the 750 page book the 50's and the factthat Meg will be gone all vacation. So, I hoping that at least I will catch up with my romance readings (if I can find a good one). Speaking of..:

 Does any one know of a really romantic book I could read?


 "...A very Merry Christmas and a happy new year, Let's hope it's a good one without any fear..."

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Date:2003-09-30 02:37
Mood: energetic

Meg and I are going to see the MOODY BLUES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It will be lovely to see them!!!!!

The Story In Your Eyes-

I've been thinking about our fortune
And I've decided that we're really not to blame
For the love that's deep inside us now
Is still the same

And the sounds we make together
Is the music to the story in your eyes
It's been shining down upon me now
I realize

Listen to the tide slowly turning
Wash all our heartaches away
We're part of the fire that is burning
And from the ashes we can build another day

But I'm frightened for your children
That the life that we are living is in vain
And the sunshine we've been waiting for
Will turn to rain

Listen to the tide slowly turning
Wash all our heartaches away
We're part of the fire that is burning
And from the ashes we can build another day

But I'm frightened for the children
That the life that we are living is in vain
And the sunshine we've been waiting for
Will turn to rain

When the final line is over
It's certain that the curtain's gonna fall
I can hide inside your sweet sweet love
For ever more

I can't believe I am going to hear that live!!!! AHHH!!!

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Date:2003-09-18 09:43
Subject:A Byrd
Mood: sleepy

"......Dear diary, what a day it's been.Dear diary, it's been just like a dream.Woke up late. Wasn't where I should have been.For goodness sake what's happening to me.Write lightly, yours truly, dear diary......"

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Date:2003-09-08 09:17
Subject:I'll I got to do, is dream, dream, dream, dream......
Mood: sleepy

"...in dreams the world keeps going round and round...."

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Date:2003-07-06 13:06
Mood: amused

Tom Petty Is Pissed

And he's got plenty of good reasons

The man who told the world "I Won't Back Down," "Don't Do Me Like That" and "Don't Come Around Here No More" doesn't need any assertiveness-training course. Tom Petty's determined, sometimes defiant attitude has collided with the music business throughout the years. For instance, in 1982 Petty recorded Hard Promises with the Heartbreakers, only to find that his then-record company had plans to use his name to initiate a new, higher $9.98 list price for albums. Petty withheld the tapes and threatened to retitle his record $8.98 in protest.
That same spirit is alive and well on Petty's latest album, The Last DJ, which takes a hard look at the lack of moral grounding in the music business. The title track has kicked up considerable controversy, with some radio stations seeing the song as a slap in the face and banning it. But Petty is not just biting the hand that feeds him. Music is only the beginning of what's pissing him off these days. "The Last DJ is a story about morals more than the music business," he says. "It's really about vanishing personal freedoms."

1 Radio is not even worth listening to
"I don't really give a flying fuck about any of it. I've tuned out. But I was elated when my song was banned. I mean, nothing could have complimented me more than to hear they just banned it at such-and-such a station because it's anti-radio. Now, in 2002 to have a song banned that doesn't have a dirty word, doesn't advocate violence -- it's fascinating, you know. Like, what are you afraid of? No record has ever been made that was more pro-radio, you know.

"I remember when the radio meant something. We enjoyed the people who were on it, even if we hated them. They had personalities. They were people of taste, who we trusted. And I see that vanishing. I thought it was a good metaphor to start the album."

2 All anyone thinks about is money
"You don't hear any more of, 'Hey, we did something creative and we turned a profit, how about that?' Everywhere we look, we want to make the most money possible. This is a dangerous, corrupt notion. That's where you see the advent of programming on the radio, and radio research, all these silly things. That has made pop music what it is today. Everything -- morals, truth -- is all going out the window in favor of profit.

"I don't think it's a good attitude in your life to feel that you have to be rich to have self-esteem. You know, I saw a billboard in New York I wish I had photographed. It was for the TNN network. It said three words against a patriotic background of red, white and blue - BIGGER, YOUNGER, RICHER. Now, I find that fascinating: 'Bigger, younger, richer.' This whole idea of being wealthy has gone too far. I never ride in a limousine, you know. I feel gross if I get in a limousine. One good thing about the Sixties was it sort of was the opposite back then. You looked silly trying to appear rich."

3 It's ridiculous to make people pay twenty dollars for a CD
"It's funny how the music industry is enraged about the Internet and the way things are copied without being paid for. But you know why people steal the music? Because they can't afford the music. I'm not condoning downloading music for free. I don't think that's really fair, but I understand it. If you brought CD prices back down to $8.98, you would solve a lot of the industry's problems. You are already seeing it a little -- the White Stripes albums selling for $9.99. Everyone still makes a healthy profit; it might get the music business back on its feet."

4 Only a complete greedhead would charge $150 for a concert ticket
"My top price is about sixty-five dollars, and I turn a very healthy profit on that; I make millions on the road. I see no reason to bring the price up, even though I have heard many an anxious promoter say, 'We could charge 150 bucks for this.' I would like to do this again and maybe come through and not leave a bad taste in people's mouths. I was at one of our gigs recently, and I was just stunned driving in that it cost thirty dollars to park your car. It's so wrong to say, 'OK, we've got them on the ticket and we've got them on the beer and we've got on everything else, let's get them on the damn parking.' You got to care about the person you're dealing with."

5 Record labels don't care about artists
"An act like ours wouldn't even be around today if someone hadn't brought us along and let us make mistakes and grow at our own pace. Today it seems that if you don't have a hit -- or even if you do -- they have no use for you the next time. It's like, 'Well, why wait for these guys to come back with another hit when we can bring in somebody else?' It's an asinine way to conduct yourself. These people are looking at balance sheets, not music. Most people involved in putting this music on the air or bringing it to us aren't really listening to it."

6 Filthy lyrics make me sick
"I'm frustrated by what I hear. Maybe it's not meant for me. Personally, I'm way too bright for a lot of the hip-hop lyrics to affect. I'm much too smart to think that jewelry or how cool I am is really going to change much about my personality. If you're dumb enough that it entertains you, have a great time. But I am seeking more than that.

"When I was a young rock & roll star, I was really fascinated and shocked at times by the power that I had, by the power of my words, and shocked that it can be taken wrong. I don't believe in censorship, but I do believe that an artist has to take some moral responsibility for what he or she is putting out there. And I think a lot of these young kids are going to have to learn the hard way before they realize that you can actually do some damage if you're being careless or frivolous in what you're saying."

7 Only a sick culture would sexualize young girls
"It's disgusting. It's not just pop music, it's fashion, it's TV, it's advertising, it's every element of our culture. Young women are not being respected, children aren't being respected. Why are we creating a nation of child molesters? Could it be that we're dressing up nine-year-old women to look sexy? And even if we're wrong, let's not do it anyway. I really don't put it past these advertising people to say, 'Well, look, we made a lot of money when we brought the nine-year-old out and made her look like a hooker. Let's do it again.' "

8 Why are we rewarding people for being rich?
"Getting back to the whole issue of ticket prices: We don't do the Golden Circle/VIP thing. I don't see how carving out the best seats and charging a lot more for them has anything to do with rock & roll. A lot of the time, some corporation's bought up these seats with someone's money who doesn't even know it's being spent -- and they are going to use it to entertain clients. A lot of the people who buy these seats don't give a damn about the music -- they're going to get a waiter. What you see from the stage is a group of people just talking to each other, not really interested in being there at all. And the poor guy who really is interested, he's sitting way in the back."

9 And TV is worse
"I think television's become a downright dangerous thing. It has no moral barometer whatsoever. If you want to talk about something that is all about money, just watch the television. It's damn dangerous. TV does not care about you or what happens to you. It's downright bad for your health now, and that's not a far-out concept. I think watching the TV news is bad for you. It is bad for your physical health and your mental health. The music business looks like, you know, innocent schoolboys compared to the TV business. They care about nothing but profit. They will make a movie about murdering their kids, you know? And they'll put the guy who killed them on TV. And before long, he might even have his own show."

10 A lot of artists are as greedy as the industry
"Let me say this so it's definitely in the story: I don't think the industry is entirely to blame. Let's face it: The music industry has always been laughably corrupt, always. It's the artists themselves that often cause problems. Artists aren't necessarily business people. And they aren't neces-sarily aware of all the things that go on in their names. Some just want to make some music, but there is a lot of greed among artists as well. Whether or not we know it, we are all to blame. I think it's time -- starting with the artist -- to try to be a little more responsible and aware of what goes on in our name."

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Date:2003-05-15 15:01
Mood: distressed

Today seemed was a good day al around until the middle of English and ever since then I have had this pit in my stomach... I don't know why, it have no reason to have it. I feel like something bad is going to happen..... what did I do? I am SO confused.
"Intuition..takes me there.. Intuition takes me everywhere"
I just had to quote John even thought those are not that great of lyrics.
The skirts I ordered from A&E came, they are so cute. My byrds greatest hits came and my grandmother sent me something. I all seems well but there is something knocking at my brain I wish I knew what it was....

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Date:2003-05-13 19:57
Subject:*..all its got to take is someone to make it blow awya blow away blow away...*
Mood: cold

It has been a while, though the time has passed so quickly but the days are growing slow
now. hehe End of school I guess. I just want to say to all that read this that when I write in
my journal I write like I would in a journal random thoughts and nothing creative at
ALL!!! This is not an essay I am going to hand in for a grade all this is a journal. So
DON'T judge my writing on this. (nudge nudge wink wink say no more..and all that)

The last time I updated was April 17th about a month ago (I only posted once that
month). For some this may be the usual but for me that is a long time. I went to New
York over April break and it was great. I went shopping, got my nails done, and went out
to eat. * y* That week I also got the cd Mind Games by John Lennon. I always read
mediocre reviews on it but I found it quite enjoyable so I bought two weeks later Walls
and Bridges. If you think mind games is good Walls and Bridges blows it out of the
water. *amazed* I ADORE it. I should have known I would love it seeing as my favorite
song of all time is on it #9 Dream (USELESS INFORMATION: close with George
Harrison’s "I'd Have You Any Time"). I have fallen for John all over again the last few
weeks. I LOVE his music! I also got the Beatles Anthology tapes and have watched all
but one disc. They are so uplifting and the love of my life (not John) is on it; Jeff. There
are these great videos on them and all there famous performances. It is such a wonderful
look at the beatles. I just bought two cd's on half yesterday; Buffalo Springfield's Greatest
hits and the Byrds greatest hits. I have been wanting to buy a birds greatest hits when I
heard there song "Eight Miles High" on the Beatles Anthology. Then there was a song by
Buffalo Springfield on the radio and I was so intrigued. Not to mention the Buffalo
Springfield CD for 1.50 and the Byrds for 2.50, what a steal.

OTRA was invented. It stands for Official Tea Ring Association, association.......
association. It is a once a week thing where we sit and have tea and talk. I changed the
day this week and now people are mad at me. I think that is an instant Karma thing. I
apologize to those who I was mad at for missing them. grrrr

I can't believe that next year is my real last year of high school. I have been dying to get
out of there forever. Some people don't understand why I don't like conforming but I don't
want to go to things like prom and all those other ridicules high school dreams.

Today was ok, I was kind of on the low side. My self esteem was particularly low today
to begin with and then this teacher decided to make me feel stupid!!! grrr So I got home
and curled up to Neil Young's "After the Gold Rush." I discovered this song I usually
don't listen to called "I believe in You." It is a great sad love song.

Now that you found yourself losing your mind
Are you here again?
Finding that what you once thought was real
Is gone, and changing?

Now that you made yourself love me
Do you think I can change it in a day?
How can I place you above me?
Am I lying to you when I say
That I believe in you
I believe in you.

Coming to you at night I see my questions
I feel my doubts
Wishing that maybe in a year or two
We could laugh and let it all out

Now that you made yourself love me
Do you think I can change it in a day?
How can I place you above me?
Am I lying to you when I say
That I believe in you
I believe in you.

Lots of things are in store for the next week. Tomorrow Meg is coming over and she
downloaded a bunch of videos online and made a disc of them. I am SO excited!! I am
trying out for fiddlers Monday *nervous.* Then next week it is Meg's birthday *YAY*
and we are going to New York!!! I am EXTREMELY excited!!

Surprise, Surprise (sweet bird of paradox)- John Lennon

Sweet as the smell of success
Her body's warm and wet
She get's me through this god awful lonelyness
A natural high butterfly Oh I,
I need, need, need her
Just like a willow tree
A breath of spring you see
And oh boy you don't know what she do to me
She makes me sweat and forget who I am
I need, need, need, need her

Well I was wondering how long this could go on, on and on
Well I thought I could never be surprised
But could it be that I bit my own tongue
Oh yeah, it's so hard to swallow when you're wrong

A bird of paradise
The sunrise in her eyes
God only knows such a sweet surprise
I was blind she blew my mind think that I
I love, love, love, love, love her
I love her, I love her, I love her, I love her

Sweet sweet, sweet sweet love

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Date:2003-04-17 15:01
Subject:the real world
Mood: annoyed

I have a vow to make... I will NEVER live in the real world again. No, this is not some cry for help or suis*de attempt. This is my way of saying I am going to tilt things my way, to my perspective, live in my head yet do things to get what I want. I will begin to "lucidly dream." Yes, that is how life is usually, I live in a dream. Today though, I let myself out of my mind and I now know why I had not done this before. I think ever since Tuesday I though I could live in the real world, but that was a bad idea.

My closest friend is off on a trip, I am exstrememly worried about another, I made a new one, I have vowed (yes another one) to never speak to another (I can't believe that someone could do that to me, AGAIN!!! never trust that one again), and I think that is it.


Tomorrow I am off back home, New York. I am excited to get away for a while. I have a journal to keep me connected (bealtebug). I have lots to do there. I really can't wait fot the drive down. Meg and I decided to burn each other cd's. thigns like the Rolling Stones, Jethro Tull,.... and other things like that. I can't wait to GO!!!

Why would I ever want any man but him?

sigh... so beautiful


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Date:2003-03-31 15:36
Mood: complacent

Today is % ! Only four days left this week. Tomorrow I am going to miss the first two
periods because I have a doctors appointment, thank you mom. I have decided since there
are 3 weeks of school left before vacation.
Here is a day by day analyses:
Tonight- Tacos!! *yay* best food ever!
Tuesday- Doctors appointment take a French quiz after school
Wednesday- Flute Lesson and study
Thursday-..umm... I will have to look into that

That is probably something I am going to start doing a lot.

I love these two songs:
Heaven (Rolling Stones) and Seven Bridges Row (Eagles)

Something that has become very apparent to me lately is that nothing is as it seems. Yes, I
know, a very easy and known concept. But do we ever relies it? Every day you find out
something you had no idea was there and changed the situation. The 'idea' you use to have
is now changed. Try to count every time a day that something alters your perception of
things. Again, you can say I am being fake deep but this is just an idea I had.

We were almost our of winter and then yesterday we had to have a storm. Lets just hope it melts for the weekend. even though it says snow in the weather forcast.

My insecurity:
I do this so often!! I will say or do something that could be 'wrong.' Then I find myself
rethinking it, over analyzing it, and then I will go over the situation again. If I think about
it too much it will make me feel sick. I always try to be the best person I can be and not
do or say anything to bother someone or make them mad. I guess I should not fear people
as much and take the blame. Getting hurt making wrong choices is a part of life. I read in
a book called the '4 Agreements' that when people are mean to you and such that it is
more their problem then yours. It sounds a bit daft but it makes so much sense if you read
the book.
I needed to write that, helps me clear my mind. I use to write a lot whenever I was feeling
awaked or depressed (I am not either of those just being nostalgic I suppose). I was
reading them the other day. I should do that again, I think it helped with anxiety and other
feelings. So tonight I am getting another one of those journals that you write it. I will still
write in here, just need something personal I guess.

What is so appealing is the way this country is taking this war, like a video game or some
sort of entertainment. Get out your popcorn guys and watch the horrid scene over in Irack.
Well, that was last week. Now the country is tiered of this. What does this say about
people in the western world? What has everything come to, a box that provides us with
smiling faces delivering every five minutes tragic news.

I am going to go take some cold pills and fall asleep to What's Up Doc.

"The sky is clearing and the night has cried enough
The sun he comes the world to soften up
Rejoice, rejoice, we have no choice but to carry on

The fortunes of fables are able to see the stars
Now witness the quickness with which we get along
To sing the blues, you've got to live the dues, and carry on"

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Date:2003-03-30 18:44
Subject:Balence of.....
Mood: satisfied

Another weekend over.... It feels as if only half of a school day has gone by. That is what
is so interesting about time, it has not set feeling, you know what I mean? Think about
that, if you can spend 48 hours and have it feel like 6 and then be in school for 6 hours
and it feel like 48 then how can time be a number a systematic thing? (I can't even phrase
this question because it is so mind boggling)
This is a passage from an amazing book called "Amusing Ourselves to D*ath*'
"..much more interested in how a clock creates the idea of "moment to moment." He
attends to philosophy of clocks, to clocks as metaphor, about which our education has had
little to say and clock makers nothing at all. "The clock," Mumford has concluded, " is a
piece of power machinery whose product is seconds and minutes." In manufacturing such
a product, the clock has the effect of disassociating time from human events and thus
nourishes the belief in an independent world of mathematically measurable sequences.
Moment to moment, it turns out, is not God's conception, or nature's. It is man conversing
with himself about and through a piece of machinery he created."

One of the best books I have ever read, thanks to Meg’s mom.

I had an awesome weekend, but then again when don't I? I feel privileges to have them,
because they say you are suppose to live life to the fullest and I feel I am doing so.

Friday I had to watch my sister and I did not get to go to Em's party so Meg came over.
We had one of our "deep talks" about society and such then around 8:30 and realized I we
had not eaten dinner so we made some tacos. The rest of the night we talked and then
watched Help! until I feel asleep and then Meg let herself slip. Then at 9:30 the next
morning my mom and I had hair appointments so we dragged Meg to another one. My
hair dresser is still determined to find a color to high light Meg’s hair with. hehe After
that was over my mom took us to Donkins, chias and bagels, nothing better. Then Meg
and I got into another deep conversation about the psychological problems of this
country. Very interesting. We went to get ice cream and saw Dawn then went to Meg’s.
Katie told me about her date, her mom told me about a book she wants to write (both very
interesting), and Meg and I strayed way from deep and into silly. Tom Petty's mating call
I almost d*ed and went to heaven. Great alfrado!! Though there is a sad side. The recent
events in Meg’s life...

We made a great mix again!! I have fallen in love worth the Eagles again.
Look at this, it read my soul:

Sometimes there's a part of me
Has to turn form here and go
Running like a child from these warm stars
Down the Seven Bridges Road

The Mix we call Tyyme-
1)Seven Bridges Row- The Eagles
2)Electric Light Orchestra/Mick Kaminski- Orange Blossom (I think)
3)Day Tripper- Electric Light Orchestra
4)John Lennon Medley/Tribute (across the universe and A Day In the Life)- Electric
Light Orchestra
5)Sweet Dreams- Jethro Tull
6)Dreaming of 4000- Electric Light Orchestra
7)Heaven- Rolling Stones (best song by them besides Paint it Black)
8)Dust in The Wind- Kansas
9)Impostors of Lifes Magazine- Idle Race
10)The Lady Who Said She Could Fly- Idle Race
11)Southbound Train- Graham Nash
12)Where Love Lies Tonight- Graham Nash
13)Coast of Africa- James Taylor
14) Ticket to The Moon (Choppen' Broccoli hehe j/k)- Electric Light Orchestra
15)Prison Song- Graham Nash
16)Interview/Here Comes the Sun/Bells of/Tambourine Man/Something/Let it Be Me-
George Harrison (Jeff Lynne)
17)Wild Times- Jeff Lynne
18) Do Ya- The Move
19)California Man- The Move
20)Shot in the Arm-Wilco (My dad loves them So MUCH he wants to buy an album)

I am so very tired... night *sleep well*

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Date:2003-03-23 19:22
Subject:Thick As A Brick
Mood: amused

Your Daily Horoscope for March 23, 2003

You usually like to think of yourself as being a scientific and logical person, MEREDITH, but today you're likely to find yourself thinking more along the lines of the mystic. Your intuition and ESP are more active than usual, and you might find yourself coming up with the exact same words as someone close to you. You might also find yourself feeling especially inspired to work in an innovative way. Use your intuition and go for it!

(I think that put it well)
WOW!!! What a last 24 hours!!!
Probably one of the best parties I have been to yet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The last two weeks held a weird sort of ora after yesterday/today every thing seems to be looking up. Remember March is bipolar: in with a lion out with a lamb.

Well the night started with Meg and I collecting tickets. I was in a dream land while Meg was very capricornicle. hehe I had a catch frase, there were programs in differnt colors and every body would ask if they were the same and I said, "Yes, they are festive." Then my flute teacher walks in and I am so spacy I say (in ear shpt of John/teacher) OMG Joan is here!!!! I started frekaing out. Then she was quite surly with me really I guess she really does not like me.

PHD Long's speach was amazing, he is amzing!!! Then Milo, it was just awesome. I can't think of any better way of putting it.

The after party was so great as they always are. First Meg and I were patronised by this egosentric insecure named Tara. Treated us like three year olds, and she had this strange boy friend... very bizar.
Then there was the music, the food, the dancing, conversation, and Shawn/Sean... I am not even going to go there.

Today we hung around recovering and made two awesome mixes. One of them love songs and the other War protest songs and others. We downloaded these songs from "No Nukes," a concert agains Nuclear weapons. I was playing my dad the mix and he said hold on and left the room. He came back with the "No Nukes" record in his hand and gave it to me. Look at the track list!!

Record 1
1. Dependin' on You - The Doobie Brothers
2. Runaway - Bonnie Raitt
3. Angel from Montgomery - Bonnie Raitt
4. Plutonium Is Forever
5. Power - The Doobie Brothers
6. Times They Are A-Changing - Graham Nash, James Taylor, and Carly Simon
7. Cathedral - Graham Nash
8. Crow on the Cradle - Jackson Browne
9. Before the Deluge - Jackson Browne
10. Lotta Love - The Doobie Brothers
11. Little Sister - Ry Cooder
12. Woman - Sweet Honey in the Rock
13. We Almost Lost Detroit - Gil Scott-Heron
14. Get Together - Jesse Colin Young
Record 2
1. You Can't Change That - Raydio
2. Once You Get Started - Chaka Khan
3. Captain Jim's Drunken Dream - James Taylor
4. Honey Don't Leave L.A. - James Taylor
5. Mockingbird - Carly Simon
6. Heart of the Night - Poco
7. Cry to Me - Tom Petty & the Heartbreakers
8. Stay - Jackson Browne
9. Devil With a Blue Dress Medley - Bruce Springsteen & the E Street Band
10. You Don't Have to Cry - Crosby, Stills & Nash And Young
11. Long Time Gone - Crosby, Stills & Nash And Young
12. Teach Your Children - Crosby, Stills & Nash And Young
13. Takin' It to the Streets - The Doobie Brothers
AMAZING!!! (record and mix)
The mix turned out like this:
(War Protest)
1. Find the Cost of Freedom- Crosby, Stills, Nash, and Young
2. No War- Neil Young and Graham Nash
3.We Didn't Start the Fier- Billy Joel
4.Crow on the Cradle - Jackson Browne
5.Times They Are A-Changing - Graham Nash, James Taylor, and Carly Simon
6.Country Joe and the Fish
7.Military Madness- Graham Nash
8.Give Peace a Chance- John Lennon
(other stuff)
9.Long Black Road-Electric Light Orchestra/Jeff Lynne
10.Thrasher-Neil Young
11. Bungle in the Jungle- Jethrotull
12.Dream On- Areosmith
13.All Over the World- Electric Light Orchestra
14.Who Owns this Place-Don Henly
15.Thick as a Brick- Jethrotull
16.Behind Blue Eyes- The Who

Tomorrow I am skipping school. First of all because I am tiered and secondly the Oscars are on tonight. This weekend was awesome there has not been one like it in a while!!!
Meg, remmeber we had the idea that our parents could get together? Just a thought.

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Date:2003-03-21 23:38
Subject:No doubt about it now I'm in too deep
Mood: thoughtful

I have not updated in a while so I guess I will give you the highlights of this week. It was
going pretty slow till Wednesday.

Wednesday: Deanna decided to come over since I had not seen her in a very long time
and while Asher was driving us (in his awesome car may I add) we decided to go do
something. So we ended up in town. SO we ate at house of pizza which I probably have
not been to since at least November. The last time the three of us was this summer. Then
we went to Outskirts and I found the most beautiful coat and I must get it!!!! I have a coat
obsession you might say.

Today (almost yesterday): Deanna came over and we just talked for hours and ate pizza. It
was nice, we have not really talked in a long time (yes I know how many times can I
repeat myself). She told me quite a few interesting stories!!! I hope you see Sam
tomorrow!!! Oh, and you have to do the sweatpants thing!!!
You know what is sick, Americans are turning this war into another reality TV show.
WAR: All I can say is that since it has started all I hope is that something good comes of
it. Two Marines killed one who lived in Skowhegan and my mom worked with his
family. He was only 30 and with kids. Imagine all the people in Iraq , 37 casualties they
said..... I can only pray that this War and Freedom Fries will be gone soon enough.
I listened to the WHOLE first Crosby, Stills, Nash album and found out that I like every
song even "Long Time Gone." Makes me happy, new music that I own, is there anything

..well...Do you ever feel as if you are into deep and you don't even know the person...
does it scare you? Maybe I am writing this because it is nearing midnight and I am alone
in a dark house flipping through TV stations and doing a survey on why I just
unsubscribed to a Cool Savings email I never signed up for (god knows why). It is too
weird for me. I worry that sometimes I live in my head way too much and that I am
becoming the dreamer with no ambition. I wonder if I ever had the chance if I would do
anything seeing that I have a chance to do something right now, a simple thing, and even
thinking about it I get sick and my stomach begins to get large rope like knots. (run on) I
need to take steps the only way to learn how to fly is to take the steps to fly. I'm not
looking for much, but what I have found is to much and so little. I need to be pushed. I
hope I don't sound like one of those fake deep LJ users because what I just wrote (for it
being midnight) hits so close to home. Living in this dream we call reality.. so if it is all
just a dream and nothing really matters I should go for it...right? Life is so short and even
if there is (which I do believe) reincarnation we don't remember. Like in defending your
life you have to live with out fear.
Tomorrow is going to be fun and yes I am wearing a Jean skirt, can't wait!!! *smile* I
will be over between 1 and 2, I am assuming you still have not listened to Jackson
Browne hehe P.
Jim Farmer wrote back to me..Roseanne: born December 18, no year given.. surprised?
It says for her (well parts of it):
Strengths: Integrated, Natural, Successful
Weaknesses: Dark-Sided, Destructive, Violent
Best: Marriage
Worst: Love
Title-Encompassing a World
Highlights:(they don't say anything really good about them *yay*)
"One disturbing element of this match up is that the partners often activate the other's
dark side..."
"Friendships and marriages between Sagittarius III's and Capricorn I's may develop into
career associations, and vice versa.... have remarkably successful in business.."
"Love affairs can be perilous, however dark desires may be aroused here that can lead just
as easily to instability as to ual gratification."
" Unfortunately, fixed familial roles and behavioral patterns may prevent these two from
interaction personally and thus having a chance to work out their differences."

Now for Me:
Strengths: Moderating, Intelligent, Depolarizing (wow, those are SO interrupting)
Weakness: Resentful, Irritating, and Extreme
Best: Love
Worst: Parent-Child
Title: Middle Ground
Highlights: Basically it says we keep things in balance ..
" Marriages between these two can witness a splendid melding of work and love,
supplying a steady flow of energy to both these aspects of the spouses' lives."
It also says that Capricorn’s are easily annoyed and the immature Aquarius can get on his
nerves, but other then that.. *yay*

I am really beginning to believe in this stuff.. I mean astrology.
I am Very tiered so I am off to bed.. Night!

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Date:2003-03-18 15:33
Subject:I've been walking...
Mood: lonely

I saw the Bob Dylan Victoria Secret comercial gain today. That one is so funny!!!

I don't know why I am feeling weird. I should be happy it is a beautiful day but I am not. I real don't like that...damn people.

I had this dream last nigth and I realised in the car today who it was about. Have you ever had a dream and then that starts a crush... grrrr

Tomorrow going to continue the tradition and a band concert.

Thursday an interesting plan.

I need to be active, I can't wait till tennis starts!

I am going to run and then take a nap.

I finished my lyrics.....

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Date:2003-03-17 14:48
Subject:Sun is shinning in the Sky
Mood: ecstatic

Sun is shinin' in the sky,
There ain't a cloud in sight
It's stopped rainin'
Everybody's in a play
And don't you know
It's a beautiful new day.

Runnin' down the avenue,
See how the sun shines brightly
In the city on the streets
Where once was pity,
Mr. Blue Sky is living here today.

Yes, that is how it is. What a beautiful day!!!! Can you believe it is almost spring...the
snow is melting meaning grass and flowers. It is going to rain Thursday!!! I have wanted
it to rain so long, strange desire. Monday is over and only 4 days left in the school week..
the never ending cycle of day to day. Time it is such an interesting concept. If I start
putting it into words I might blow my mind. "Blew my brains out did All right.."
(ELO/Jeff Lynne 'Moment is Paradise')

Last weekend was fun, our album is finished and ready to be shipped. My aunts NYC apartment
was sold to a guy who owns a record lable. AHHH.. can you believe it?? I am hoping to
slip it to him. I wonder... hummm I know very silly and dreamer like. "...he hides his head
inside a dream, someone should call him and see if he could come out.." (Neil Young
'Only Love Can Break Your Heart')

The decision to kiss for the first time is the most crucial in any love story. It changes the
relationship of two people much more strongly than even the final surrender because this
kiss already has within it that surrender.
— Emil Ludwig (1881-1948)

Isn't that beautiful? "Got a strange magic" (ELO Strange Magic)

The funniest thing happened I emailed a guy on ebay about a poster (my icon) and he
wrote me back this really cute really British reply. It was adorable. Told me about his
weekend in Brussels and such.

Well, another day is done and only 4 more till the weekend which shall be fun. “I’ll sail
away on a voyage of no return to see if eternal life is meant to be and if I find the key to
the eternal dream.." (ELO 'Eldorato')

*until the next time we meet*
"Here We Go round the Lemon Tree, Mister, can't you hear me" (Idle Race 'Lemon Tree')


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Date:2003-03-02 18:13
Subject:This morning I woke and I knew...... (CSNY)
Mood: dirty

Your Daily Horoscope for March 02, 2003

Often anticipation is as good, if not better, than the actual event, MEREDITH. This is what you experience today as you and your partner plan an exciting getaway. It's a busy day, making phone calls and booking hotels and airline tickets. But what fun to do so.

Celistine Perfetic of what?

There is nothing that feels better then exercise!!! I just read listening to music for an hour and I came up some great stories and it makes me happy, Alive. You could say I'm alive!!! hehe :P

Great weekend, can't wait till next, Megs mothers birthday, recording, the concert... *yay*

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Date:2003-02-25 17:51
Subject:forever and a day
Mood: accomplished

I know this is a stupid reason to post but I want to remember this. FINALLY!!! My mom told me about when she saw ELO. I had to go deep into her memory. He was wearing a white suit, they had the space ship and a robot, a big fro, and the only songs she can remember them playing are Turn To Stone, Evil Woman, and Boy Blue.

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Date:2003-02-25 15:32
Subject:Dark Horse
Mood: peaceful

Happy Birthday GeorgeCollapse )

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